|Some guys at school got flowers, but my bf downloaded me the newest Tomb Raider. I think he's a keeper.|
People who haven’t gone through depression can’t understand it. Imagine all those thing you like to do and enjoy, fading away.
I used to love the autumn rain and the wind that smells like the sea. It felt so great to be in the forest and running through the fields back home.
It didn’t happen all the sudden, the change was subtle. Now the wind blows straight through me and it feels different, hostile. The days used to be too short, now i just kill time until it’s time to go to sleep. I can’t sleep without my medication and even my dreams are confusing and scary. I fear that only way i can be at peace is when i’m dead.
I stopped caring, just medicate the shit out of me and keep scavenging my brain. Just let me feel happy again. And i will never complain.
But well, there is one ray of sunshine in my life. My boyfriend supporting me. Giving me hope I can be me again.